I have been thinking and taking in the wise words of others that I look up to in the world. And due to things kind of going down hill for me lately I feel I have found myself feeling alittle better about the shitty situations that have been taken place as of late in my life, And feel that the concept of things that make you happy mostly involves things like films, People, Music, Hobbies, Weather.. Just to name a few. And I feel these things have really influence me to this day as a person and I wonder wether these kind of things have shaped the way I have acted about these situations I'm currently going through. If that is the case or not it doesn't really matter, I want to start changing things. I may have be thinking abit dramatically about these changes and have been writing them down such as..Using the different aspects of my personality or identity and taking different aspects of myself and focusing on the main aspects of my personality the focused on how I acted when confronted with these situations and sort of avoiding them or focusing on one aspect more then another until things get better for me and I am able to move on. But I think that over dramatic Idea will most likely fail due to the type of behaviour (not that the shit situations were my fault) being used may have a negative outcome in the future.If..that..makes sense. But there is another aspect that I heard Tavi Gevinson talk about at one of her talks..If that's what it's called..anyway Talks..She was talking about fangirling and how it's one the happiest thing that someone can be, A fan. Because it gives us something of someone to relate to and almost it being a reflection of yourself..as it's kind of a element or a part of you.. and for the Film, Person, Song or hobbies there is always that constant relation to you due to you being a fan and them or it being famous or popular..and that connection  making you feel not so alone which as a teen isn't that hard of a thing to achieve because they need you..just like you feel you need them.( THE REFLECTION). Anyway I though what she was talking about was so, very, extremely wise. Another thing she said is due to being a fan you can turn things that may be shitty and relate them to things that you love or "fangirl"over. Like places or items or experiences you have had..and this makes things a little bit more bearable. This all probably doesn't make sense to you but I felt like writing and venting so I hope it's a good read at least..

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